Page 12 When Gokul's Mom Knew

Written on 12th January 2015

I was sick the past few days. I'm sorry you haven't heard from me.

So as of today, gokul's mom officially knows about the both of us. This marks the beginning of a lot of things. For the both of us, as a couple, this is the point of no return. There is no looking back after this.

For him individually, this means a lot of things. This means opening up to his parents like never before. Being accountable for the things he has done till now and the things he will do from now on.

Poor thing did not want this on his back right now and yet... He is going to have to put up with this.

For me, this is the part that flips the switch of life. I feel like I don't have too much time to be the good daughter. My time is up, I  must now blow my cover and show my parents, maybe even everyone else, my real side. Isn't that the thing I dread the most. I need to be able to take off the good girl mask. The mask is no longer a prop, I feel like the mask is me. I wouldn't know what to do without it.

This also marks the end of the I don't give a damn period in my life. Time to get up, dust off the laziness, be a bride, be a grown up and not have fun anymore.
Time to be boring and old. Time to grow up.

What will I even do without my mum. She is going to hate me. Her trust in me is going to crumble. I love being here kid. She takes such good care of me, I'm going to have to leave all that behind. I won't be anyone's kid anymore. I'm won't be the first thing my dad sees in the morning. Everything changes.